Just keep swimming..

It occurred to me that I hadn't written anything in a long time.

The last couple of entries I made were pretty dark, so I suppose now is probably a good time to write another entry.

My life consists of 4 - 5 main things, and at any given point about half of them are great, and the other half awful. For the first 5 months of this year, all of them were below average or at least I perceived them to be below average. I've since found help and would say that only 1 or 2 need help to get above average.

It always takes comparison to realise how you are going. The problem is that most people compare themselves to other people when really we should be comparing to ourselves. In the last 6 months, I suppose the main thing I have changed is the way I think. The standards to which I hold myself to. It's great to hold yourself to high standards, my issue was that I was probably holding myself to unrealistic standards.

It's taken a lot of self reflection for me to realise that in the last year, I have come a really long way. In the last couple of months, I have learned more than possibly my entire working life. I have been given compliments in the last couple of weeks which I don't think I would have believed a couple of months ago.

I tend to believe that I am really honest to myself, perhaps I was wrong. Judging myself too harshly is not entirely honest. Time to go a little easier on myself and to actually celebrate wins when they occur, rather than feeling there should have been a bigger win.