Motivation, motivation, motivation

Every time I think I'm going well, I lose motivation. This past month or so has been a bit of a struggle trying to stay on track. It's gotten to the point where my friend and I are making little promises to each other and pledging exercise to make sure we stay accountable!

Her pledge was 5 days of exercise for the week, and mine was 20km over the week. We're both tracking okay. I think I would like to try and rip this goal apart. I've done a 7km and an 8km run this week, if I stay on track and do another 7 then I'm set. But I want to push myself a little more... Perhaps I can squeeze in an extra run on Saturday... I don't know, I just want a little more out of myself.

Anyways, the reason I'm posting today is to do with motivation. One of the things that I love about blogs is the progress shots. I love looking at before and afters, because it makes me feel like things are possible. So I put together some before and after shots.

Left is from my last trip to Japan, which would have happened around October 2010 and the right picture was taken the other night on the couch (let's just say April 2013). I was about 10 weeks pregnant at the time I think, but I had not put on any weight from it yet. Probably about 15kgs ago.

Left picture is from my trip to Fiji, probably around May 2011 and the picture from the right is from the other day. Also about 15kgs difference between the 2 pictures.

Sometimes I forget how far I've come. I get disappointed in myself for not pushing harder, I feel self conscious and fat in a particular outfit. I need to remind myself that I have worked really hard these last 8 or so months, and it shows. I need to remind myself that there will be bad days but I am doing better than I was a year ago. I need to remind myself that I am worth it, and I feel fantastic.

There are still times when I look at myself in the mirror and wonder how I managed to get here but I have to remind myself, I have to remember that it wasn't easy. It was definitely hard work, and you know what? It was absolutely worth it. Hopefully seeing these pictures side by side will help me with the motivation I need to get myself back on track..

I'll post up my 25km early next week, you just wait and see!